Friday, December 19, 2008

Four Months

Today marks the four month anniversary of my dad's death. It's hard to believe four months have passed already. I don't know if I was consciously aware that today is the anniversary or not, but at work, for a short time all I could picture in my mind was my dad, sick, in the hospital. Thankfully I didn't break down.

Last night I received a couple of funny emails from a friend. My gut instinct was to forward them to Dad, knowing he'd get a kick out of them and laugh his butt off. Then reality set in. I had a brief moment of sadness at that as well.

It's hard to believe that next week is Christmas. The year has certainly gone by quickly! I was worried...ok, not really worried...that we wouldn't have a white Christmas this year, but on Wednesday we received around 20cm of snow and it's been cold, so nothing has melted. The weather is calling for some flurries tomorrow, and snow on Sunday - supposedly a storm, though I don't know how bad (or not) it will be. From my understanding, the province of Ontario is in the midst of this storm, and it will move into our region by Sunday. Hopefully if we do get it (or any snow), it will be after I get home from church and my friend Kristina's. However, if it does start snowing during church services, I will probably just come home then. If it's snowing quite a bit in the morning, I might not go to church at all. It all depends.

Ever since I had my accident in 2002, I've been skittish about driving in snow - even being a passenger. I also don't like driving in the rain, at night, or at night if it's raining/snowing. I'm trying not to be afraid though. My mom doesn't like driving in the winter, so I need to be the one who does this. I will say, however, that I drive slowly and responsibly at these times.

The last couple of days at work have just dragged by. We could go in as early as 7:00 a.m., however, on Thursday I didn't know what the roads would be like that early (after the storm), and I wanted to wait before going in. Today, I just couldn't drag myself out of bed early enough. I've been quite tired yesterday and today. I think it's just from not being used to working all day and not having a nap in the afternoon. Wow, I sound like I'm getting old, all this talk about napping!
Anyway, next week won't be a long week - just full days (going in early as well) Monday, Tuesay, and probably until 2:00 or 3:00 on Wednesday. And, of course Thursday and Friday will be holidays. I figure that since this company has a policy of having to work the day before and after a holiday in order to get paid for it, I would go in the Monday after Christmas so that I can get paid for Christmas (boxing day is unpaid). Someone did mention to me that where I haven't been consistantly working there I might not get paid anyway - when people start out and haven't worked for the company for three months, they don't get paid for any holidays in that time period. So, I need to check with the supervisor. If she tells me that I won't get paid, then I'm not going to bother going in on the Monday after Christmas; if I do get paid, then I'll go in. Regardless, I won't work the rest of the week. The reason for that is I start back to school on January 5, and I'd like to have a few days to myself to relax and do what I want - or do nothing at all.
And, on that note, I'm going to end my post for now and wish you all a Christ-filled day!


Saija said...

those firsts are always difficult ... my dad died in 2001 ... and i remember being so very very sad that first Christmas ...

may you find comfort in Jesus ...

Vader's Mom said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I've lost both my parents and it's hard to watch someone else go through it.

PJ said...

I know this must be a hard time.. your tree looks the red poinsettas. Have a merry Christmas!

Anonymous said...

Wishing you all the best this Christmas and a blessed New Year!

God bless you and your family! ♥