It's Labour Day. Tomorrow, in most places in Canada, school starts.
This is the first year since getting my full time teaching job, three years ago, that I will not be teaching. I've not had to go in a few weeks early to prepare and get my classroom ready. I've not had to go in for orientation or find a new (or keep the same) class theme.
I'm not working. I quit my job last June to move back to the east coast where there are no teaching jobs available. I have no car, which makes it even harder to try and supply teach - it's all hard to explain, but this is the position I am in.
I'm looking for work elsewhere, but not having much luck yet - though to be honest I only started looking a week ago. I've not heard hide nor hair from any of the places I've applied. In all honesty, I know some of it is due to being over-qualified for these positions (which I could probably have gotten a lot easier had I not gone back to university and got my teaching degree).
There are "lots" of job opportunities for industries for which I am totally not qualified - computer related jobs, even secretarial/receptionist (because of not knowing how to use certain computer programs), nursing, sales (which I don't think I could do very well), or even teaching at a university (which required a doctorate and I don't have that - I don't even have a master's degree).
I can't afford to change my career yet again, especially with trying to pay off a student loan. If I can't find something, I might have to take some kind of course though.
In all of this, I do know that God has a plan. God will make good from the bad, and He will provide. I just need to trust Him, let go of my fear (which is NOT from Him and holds me back) and just TRUST.
That's hard to do. It's something I struggle with, I admit, but as I've stated before, when I made the decision to quit and move away, I felt a total peace about the whole situation. I know there is a plan, there is a way, and things will work out. The fear of not knowing, and 'what if' (as well as the lack of total trust) stops me dead in my tracks.
So, pray for me. Pray that things will work out well for me, that I'll stop letting fear get in the way, and that I will fully and totally trust that God will provide a way out of this for me.