Sunday, September 29, 2013

A Month In

Sorry for the delay in posting.  I've been trying to create a post on here for a few days now, but for some reason I couldn't type in the post area of Blogger. I could type in the title area, but not elsewhere.  I don't know if it has anything to do with my outdated Internet Explorer (some sites have been telling me I need to update or I can't see or access certain things or sites).  Anyway, I came to Google Chrome and didn't have any issues with creating a post.

Well, I've been back at work (teaching) for nearly a month now and I've been exhausted and somewhat stressed most evenings/days.  I haven't found a balance yet, and my class is requiring much more work than last year's class.  It's taking awhile to get them used to the class rules and procedures, and this is causing me stress - probably more than I should let it.

Most evenings I get home and feel too tired to do anything - make something for supper, mark work, do lesson plans, housework, etc.  So far, weekends haven't been as relaxing as I'd like either.  I really lack energy and motivation to do anything.  I typically get some work done, but not nearly as much as I'd like.  I've been trying to eat better, but with the way I've been feeling since work started up, that hasn't been too good. I've also been walking to and from (most days) work, so I am getting some exercise.

I just don't want to burn out.  We do have a little "break" at Thanksgiving, but we are going to a conference in the Vancouver area (leaving here on Wednesday, and arriving back on Saturday), followed by the Monday off for Thanksgiving. But, I know that time won't be all that relaxing and restful.  Hopefully it will help, because the next real break will only come at Christmas time.

I know I can get through this. I've been praying more and also doing prayer and devotions in class (aside from our weekly Bible class) each morning.  Maybe I'm being attacked by the enemy for this, I don't know. I pray that I will be able to focus, have energy, get my work done well, and be able to relax in the evenings. So far, I've been struggling, but maybe I'm putting too much focus on the stress and not actually trying to relax.

The balance will come. I just hope it's sooner rather than later.