Thursday, February 01, 2007

I Have No Real Title For This Post

Well, I got my essay back this week - the one I was talking about in the previous post. I did ok on it; I got 80 (which is an A-). Our next one is due this coming week, and it is dealing with the Ark of the Covenant in 1 Chronicles, and we have to do the same thing - read the article, what is written in the commentary we have, and then find a point and discuss it. I hope this one will go a little better than the last one.

I'm am a lot busier this semester than I was last. I'm taking a history course, and there is a lot of reading for that because of a book review, the term paper, class readings, and a little research "project" (for lack of a better word) on one of the Father's of Confederation. My weekend will be busy with a lot of this as the Father of Confederation project as well as the outline and bibliography for the term paper are all due this Tuesday.

My walk with God has slowly been improving somewhat. I've been able to keep up with reading my Bible everyday, but to be honest, I haven't really had any "revelations". This is probably due to me not wanting to examine my life/situation and hear from God, or I'm afraid of what I'll find out or what He might have to say or want me to do. Part of it might be that I don't want to have to face my sin and have to repent...I know it's necessary, but you know how it is...you just want to move on.

My prayer life greatly needs to improve as well. I need to pray more often. I've been praying when I think of it, or when I hear that someone might need a prayer I'll say a quick one, but, in all honesty again, it is greatly lacking.

I'm hoping that getting back into one of the Biblical courses at school will help me get back into things. I'm enjoying the Post Exilic Writings class and the discussions that we are generating from reading 1 Chronicles. I've even had a bit of desire to get back into Hebrew again, so hopefully this will help with getting on track. I know I need more than just getting into a course to get back on track, but I'm hoping at the least that it will help head me in the right direction.

Anyway, I do feel like I'm getting back on the path though I am still confused with some areas of my life - like where or what I should be doing...but I guess we're all like that. I wonder if I'm just going through a growing phase...but then maybe I was just full of doubt and anger and wanted to do things my own way....rebelling or something. I don't know. I do know I'm still feeling stagnant, discontented, etc. It's slowly improving, so that's a start.

I know God is bigger than all things, and that I need to put Him in the #1 position and keep Him there. I need to put my focus back on Him, and then my spiritual life will improve :o).

2 comments:

David said...

hello,
your struggle is one common to all,
when we are slack, we don't notice the drifting, when you begin to get closer to 'spiritual health', then you become more aware of how far we have to go. The good thing is that God and his love never changes. we are secure in every season, and on the dark side of the moon.

Andrea said...

We may drift back and forth, but Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever. Hebrews 13:8

The good thing about your situation is that you have the answer...put God first in your life.